Answered Prayers

I got offered a job yesterday. It was kind of incredible how the stars aligned and everything just fell into place. I think Heavenly Father knew that I could not take it one more day. It was really kind of incredible. We are so excited! And another great thing is that they don't want me to start until the week after Christmas- I was so worried that if I got a job, they would want me to start immediately and I would be able to go to Utah to see my family. But it all worked out. We feel really blessed. Thank you for your prayers - they definitely helped. I will be working at River Oak Center for Children as one of their out patient clinicians. In other words, I get to do therapy with kids and their families. I actually get to use my skills from grad school- miracle of miracles! I don't have to fold clothes at the gap or learn how to make coffee at Starbucks! So this is a grateful post- I am beyond grateful for how many things we are blessed with. The Lord really is mindful of each of us. I just needed a little reminder :) Merry Christmas! 

Lately

Life had been pretty frustrating lately. I am still looking for a job. Which is never a fun thing, especially when the economy is the way it is. It makes finding a job pretty much impossible. I always thought that getting a masters degree would make finding a job easier. Not so much in fact. I had this whole plan in my head of how our life was going to go. Graduate- find amazing job, put Josh through school, Josh graduates and gets amazing job, I get licensed and maybe start private practice, start having kids bibbity bobbity boo! It turns out that life doesn't go how you plan it- ever. I'm not sure why I didn't remember this fact. You would think that with all of the twists and turns and 180's my life has taken, I would be well versed in the complexities and un-concreteness of life. Instead I find myself getting more and more frustrated and losing faith very quickly. I always have said that things happen for a reason. When I look back on the past few years, I can see the Lord's hand guiding my life so deliberately- and right now I just kind of feel alone out in the middle of nowhere. I would like some firm guidance now...please...please? I am sure that in a few years I will look back on these few months and say- well of course! I needed that time for this and this and this. It just doesn't feel so good right now. I am trying to keep the faith, and sometimes it's really hard to. It's like this thing one of my professors used to say - "yes, and" commenting on the duality of feelings. Feeling more than one thing at a time. Yes I am trying to keep the faith and it's really hard and I feel like giving up. Anyway- not to get all deep and depressing on the blog. Maybe it's the music Starbucks is playing at the moment... Just send a little prayer, thought, positive energy, whatever, my way. I could use it.